Dearest Kitty..

Hello blog I am back.. Not happy but still alive and living.

Just to put my grief on the death of my dear cat, Kitty, yesterday on Christmas Eve. I've never felt so down. Everything reminds me of him. I've been in bed in tears since the incident late arvo till today. It happened so fast. Just can't stop. My room is full of cats and it's even more sad because I've also just started painting a picture of him and its right next to my bed. He's looking right at me. Just when I was getting back into painting, actually enjoying too! I don't think I'll be able to finish it.. very soon. I don't know what else I could've done but it's just too soon. Only two and a half years old, still a baby. Really thought he'd stay for the long run! Also right on Christmas.. I was planning to take a Christmas photo with him that day too but he's now gone.. gone before my birthday, gone before New Years.. whyyy, I don't want anything else. The last time I saw him alive and well, was not long before the incident, he was lying long in front of the house and I gave him a little pat cuddle and said 'I'll see you later when I come back Kitty!' who knew that'll be the last.

Christmas morning. Waking up, I thought I'd be okay. I miss not seeing him sleeping in my room or meowing outside the door. I normally go search for him but no.. It brought me to tears again. Looking outside the window, it hurts me knowing he won't be crawling along the fence or just sitting at the front waiting. He meant so much to me, he was my comforter, my friend, my baby, my kitty. He made me so happy. Now I feel lonely as ever. I know I have others around to support me but it's not the same.
My sister gave me a christmas present this morning since I wouldn't get of bed. Opened the package, figured out it was sneakers, opened the box there was also a cat shirt.. it made me cry again. I don't know how I feel about cats anymore.. seeing them just reminds me of him.

Oh dear Astro baby why do you have to go.. the time when I need you most.

 

 

 

 

 

 

               

 I can't smile or even fake it but thanks for being the bestfriend I've had. Will truly miss you. :'(

Rest in Peace Kitty.

Cat life

Current at uni, waiting for class to start.. had a nice relief nap. I had a tute with Raf and now a tad motivated to just get going and doing things! I am the same every start of the semester, so lost and zzz. Felt so shitty today though.  Living the life of a cat. I need a haircut and I feel like going for a run.

prog painting, from a little set up on my desk.

Random texta doodle

Last monday went to the Aquarium for class. We were meant to draw fishes and their movements. I struggled, it was so hard. I just actually suck at drawing in general. The penguins are so cute! 

Flying turtle turtle

Kitty in a little jersey shirt, bought from daiso.

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Clap clap

It has been awhile, Holidays over, back to uni. 

Holidays was alright, good sleep ins and spent alot of time with these guys.

Feasting and drinkin' meetin new peeps.
Workin, and actually finished a painting I've been doing from a few days ago for this nice orthodontist lady.

I'm actually really happy as to how this turned out in the end! Currently in a gold frame ready to go~

Did some baking: Green tea n choc cheesecake, Cream cheese donuts, lemon tart.

Did some cleaning that took daysss! Now currently in the same state/mess as before -__-". It can never stay clean. whyyyyy?!?!!

fail Finn.
Attempted some sewing after a long time.. 

Little Boy and Munta.
During the break.. one of my dogs died.. you may remember Fluffy the brown pomeranian dog that ate my sausage. Sad times, was kinda unexpected. r.i.p Fluffy. Now there's these two buggers left! Little boy's so small and cute..

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YATAHH!

Come out little person

People are already assuming, nothing's happening though. when is it gonna happen? I still wonder myself.

I feel so clueless, I need a hobby. I need a little person in my head to make decisions for me.

Been eating so much unhealthy foods. 

Anywho saw these guys!

w/ Jordi and Scarlett

 he's all you got and you're all he needs. They are soo cool, like really.

Back Come

From Jan to May, I am back!

I've actually missed blogging. looking back at old posts and seeing what I've done. It's a good platform for me to remember things and keeps me occupied.

First Group tute for the year. wk7

I've been wanting to blog since Feb actually but I couldn't seem to.. due to my lazyness and hfsagksj.

 I've started so many drafts though, just can't get through with it. There's much happening these past months I don't really know where to start. mumble jumble. Anyways I've been so sick this past week, rather dreadful cold. so horrid, my minds not helping either. Uni still, new studio space, new people, new subjects. cries. Studio work, getting somewhere slowly. Been working.. and napping heaps! I think I have a problem. I am sooo lazy even my teachers know it.. what is this. Had my CATS presentation in wk 8 on the grotesque, was sooo relieved to get it out of the way! I knew it was shit but pheww, relief. been stressing over that shit for 2 weeks prior, such a waste of time spent. Now got another long paper to write. happy times!

Second Group tute. wk10

I'll just leave it here for now. It's too hard to start after long period. Toodaloo~

Happy Holidays!

Last day of december and 2012! It is so soon. The days have gone by so quickly, I don't keep up with the date or weather anymore but it has been nice out. This christmas period I've just been working. Feels exhausting. Working NYE and new years day as well. Haven't been drawing or painting for a while.. I feel so faded and drifted. For some reason I'm glad this year is over but still not looking forward to the next year. When it comes, it comes. Sounds so depressing. Anyways I've got a new ipod dock from my mum which I've been looking for and a new mac charger! which my brother got for my birthday. Happy times. 

My Santa hat brownie I made for Christmas day spent at a family friends place where we had BBQ.

BBQ@Susans 

and also celebrated my birthday.. 

Some presents.. I'm just grateful I even got any. Birthdays ain't my thing. 

Linda's cake for her birthday by mother. Inside is checkered done my me!

My birthday cake by mum! with Linda helping with the cat.

Yummy cake.

Kat and Kitty!

Have a happy and safe new year to anyone who still reads this.