Dearest Kitty..

Hello blog I am back.. Not happy but still alive and living.

Just to put my grief on the death of my dear cat, Kitty, yesterday on Christmas Eve. I've never felt so down. Everything reminds me of him. I've been in bed in tears since the incident late arvo till today. It happened so fast. Just can't stop. My room is full of cats and it's even more sad because I've also just started painting a picture of him and its right next to my bed. He's looking right at me. Just when I was getting back into painting, actually enjoying too! I don't think I'll be able to finish it.. very soon. I don't know what else I could've done but it's just too soon. Only two and a half years old, still a baby. Really thought he'd stay for the long run! Also right on Christmas.. I was planning to take a Christmas photo with him that day too but he's now gone.. gone before my birthday, gone before New Years.. whyyy, I don't want anything else. The last time I saw him alive and well, was not long before the incident, he was lying long in front of the house and I gave him a little pat cuddle and said 'I'll see you later when I come back Kitty!' who knew that'll be the last.

Christmas morning. Waking up, I thought I'd be okay. I miss not seeing him sleeping in my room or meowing outside the door. I normally go search for him but no.. It brought me to tears again. Looking outside the window, it hurts me knowing he won't be crawling along the fence or just sitting at the front waiting. He meant so much to me, he was my comforter, my friend, my baby, my kitty. He made me so happy. Now I feel lonely as ever. I know I have others around to support me but it's not the same.
My sister gave me a christmas present this morning since I wouldn't get of bed. Opened the package, figured out it was sneakers, opened the box there was also a cat shirt.. it made me cry again. I don't know how I feel about cats anymore.. seeing them just reminds me of him.

Oh dear Astro baby why do you have to go.. the time when I need you most.

 

 

 

 

 

 

               

 I can't smile or even fake it but thanks for being the bestfriend I've had. Will truly miss you. :'(

Rest in Peace Kitty.

Cat life

Current at uni, waiting for class to start.. had a nice relief nap. I had a tute with Raf and now a tad motivated to just get going and doing things! I am the same every start of the semester, so lost and zzz. Felt so shitty today though.  Living the life of a cat. I need a haircut and I feel like going for a run.

prog painting, from a little set up on my desk.

Random texta doodle

Last monday went to the Aquarium for class. We were meant to draw fishes and their movements. I struggled, it was so hard. I just actually suck at drawing in general. The penguins are so cute! 

Flying turtle turtle

Kitty in a little jersey shirt, bought from daiso.

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Clap clap

It has been awhile, Holidays over, back to uni. 

Holidays was alright, good sleep ins and spent alot of time with these guys.

Feasting and drinkin' meetin new peeps.
Workin, and actually finished a painting I've been doing from a few days ago for this nice orthodontist lady.

I'm actually really happy as to how this turned out in the end! Currently in a gold frame ready to go~

Did some baking: Green tea n choc cheesecake, Cream cheese donuts, lemon tart.

Did some cleaning that took daysss! Now currently in the same state/mess as before -__-". It can never stay clean. whyyyyy?!?!!

fail Finn.
Attempted some sewing after a long time.. 

Little Boy and Munta.
During the break.. one of my dogs died.. you may remember Fluffy the brown pomeranian dog that ate my sausage. Sad times, was kinda unexpected. r.i.p Fluffy. Now there's these two buggers left! Little boy's so small and cute..

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Back Come

From Jan to May, I am back!

I've actually missed blogging. looking back at old posts and seeing what I've done. It's a good platform for me to remember things and keeps me occupied.

First Group tute for the year. wk7

I've been wanting to blog since Feb actually but I couldn't seem to.. due to my lazyness and hfsagksj.

 I've started so many drafts though, just can't get through with it. There's much happening these past months I don't really know where to start. mumble jumble. Anyways I've been so sick this past week, rather dreadful cold. so horrid, my minds not helping either. Uni still, new studio space, new people, new subjects. cries. Studio work, getting somewhere slowly. Been working.. and napping heaps! I think I have a problem. I am sooo lazy even my teachers know it.. what is this. Had my CATS presentation in wk 8 on the grotesque, was sooo relieved to get it out of the way! I knew it was shit but pheww, relief. been stressing over that shit for 2 weeks prior, such a waste of time spent. Now got another long paper to write. happy times!

Second Group tute. wk10

I'll just leave it here for now. It's too hard to start after long period. Toodaloo~

Mr.Q

Back to blogging! It has been a bit over a month.. This holiday break I've been actually busy and not sitting around that much~ yayer. I have found a job! feels good to see money rolling in my bank account again. Also been painting a commision piece for cc. 

Went to the Highpoint Christmas opening event thing with my little cousins where there was free face painting, those balloon people, costume figurine people.. It's nice highpoint is actually creating events these days like they're having some 12 days til christmas where you can get free gift cards, samples and other stuff. 

Munta and Kitty baby.
Oh gosh kitty has been sooo naughty. He pissed on a new karaoke machine my dad bought not long ago. -__-  This is the second time!! I feel so bad.. my dad would probably have threw him out the house ages ago if it wasn't for me. 

Brothers Paper book work.

Christmas tree put up!

From RMIT grad show 2012

From VCA grad show 2012
Also checked out the Monash grad show. I think out of all Monash  was better. 

Last night I attended a little event for my old principal who is retiring as principle. I was invited because I have painted him and was to present it as a gift from the V parents group. It was kind of random but he liked it! and everyone else did so it was good. It was nice to feel acknowledged for something I've done by a group of people I have never met. A lot of thank yous.
What a moment..

My lemon meringue pie!
 I've been wanting to make these for awhile now after watching 'Toast' (2010)  and it just came to mind few days ago. Haven't been baking lately but I am quite happy with these as a first attempt! actually took me 2 days to make.

Ready, set, go

  

  

Woop di doo

Naughty chums.

It has been awhile! so many things to update on, kinda. Been starting on theory work for a presentation in 2 weeks and a textual criticism. It has been stressing me out that I can't do other work without thinking about it. My current prac work is not going so well as I'd like it to either. After the break, I've just gone blank. Made canvases today. Here's some things I've created so far. 

Greetings.  

Collage  

Oink.

Dot, I think I may have wrecked it.

Went to the Art Fair this few weeks ago and made some of these monsters on monster land! The art fair took the whole day for me and K to look at everything. 11am til 4.30pm. craazy. 

'Cat house' : Painting done on holiday break.

Shoes for Cindy's cute cousin!

The day I sliced my finger from cleaning a microwave safe can container.. shivers. I can still feel the pain writing about it now.  eep,

Kitty and his new furry friend.